Motionless in White - Holding On To Smoke(2019)

[00:00.58] I'm tired of feeling comatose
[00:04.03] I've lost the me that I loved most
[00:07.45] I'm barely holding on to smoke
[00:11.06] I'm barely holding on to smoke
[00:28.81] I'm not addicted but I'm not clean
[00:32.06] Why do I do this to myself on repeat?
[00:35.85] So disconnected from my own reality
[00:39.43] Am I man or machine?
[00:41.28] If I give, will you take?
[00:44.74] As I lie for the taste
[00:48.49] I just fuck it up
[00:51.92] And you lap it up
[00:56.84] (Go)
[00:57.98] Through flesh and bone
[01:01.15] I walk alone
[01:04.24] (Go)
[01:04.93] If I run, will I fade away?
[01:07.18] 'Cause I don't wanna leave it behind
[01:09.46] In all my pride, all my shame
[01:13.15] I find strength enough to show you
[01:16.67] I may bend but I won't break
[01:20.52] Because I define who I
[01:22.81] Define who I become
[01:25.01] I'm just the me that I have not met
[01:28.24] Choking in silence on the words left unsaid
[01:31.76] I feel a sickness for a home I've never been
[01:35.42] And I exist in black and white but now I'm seeing red
[01:38.92] I built a shelter in complacency
[01:42.43] Locked myself in and set fire and threw away the key
[01:46.01] So scared to live and I'm afraid to die
[01:49.47] So am I living or am I just alive?
[01:51.92] All my pride, all my shame
[01:55.23] I find strength enough to show you
[01:59.03] I may bend but I won't break
[02:02.48] I define who I become
[02:06.35] 'Cause I'm tired of feeling comatose
[02:10.19] I lost the me that I loved most
[02:13.74] I'm barely holding on to smoke
[02:17.19] But I'm holding on, I'm holding on
[02:20.77] Broken, I'm holding on
[02:24.48] Chosen to right the wrong
[02:27.88] Silence, connected yet I feel so separated
[02:34.80] Falling through flesh and bone
[02:38.33] Frozen, I stand alone
[02:41.97] Chosen to silence, the voice remains
[02:47.96] In my eyes beneath my rage
[02:51.06] I was struggling to get through
[02:54.81] Out of time and out of faith
[02:58.44] I define who I become
[03:02.02] In all my pride, all my shame
[03:05.67] I find strength enough to show you
[03:09.21] I may bend but I won't break
[03:12.35] 'Cause I define who I
[03:14.88] Define who I become
[03:16.43] I'm tired of feeling comatose
[03:19.89] I've lost the me that I loved most
[03:23.35] I'm barely holding on to smoke
[03:27.16] But I'm holding on, I'm holding on
[03:30.61] I'm tired of being human, tired of being numb
[03:33.88] I'm waiting for the holy ghost to come
[03:37.67] So save me from the webs that I have spun
[03:41.19] I'm holding on, holding on
[03:44.81] I'm holding on, holding on to smoke
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